As the first day of classes gets closer, my anxiety is sky-rocketing. I've never been so excited and scared at the same time before. My anxiety and lack of being social is holding me back from putting myself out there to meet new awesome people. And this bothers me. It's easy to say, Just don't worry about it, don't be afraid. But it's easier said than done. I don't know when why or how I got this way because I used to be the most outgoing and social person, and now, I don't like talking to people. Not that I don't want to, I just can't without stuttering and feeling stupid for some reason. I am excited though. I'm regretting not living on campus the first semester which will probably come back to bite me in the butt. But my ultimate goal is to go to the Art Institute of Washington. I havn't fully decided, but I'm either going to go for audio production or culinary management. I might try to go to some open houses by next summer. Since Bryce is moving to Richmond, I hope, we're going to start planning things together. I'm really glad that he's decided, on his own of course, to look into going to school. He wants to go to AI also, so we'll probably end up going there together. This summer and the beginning of my summer is/ is going to be hard without him. I'm so used to having him there everyday with me for when I get upset or need help. Now, everything has to be solved with a phone call and it sucks. But I know it's good for a relationship to be able to do things on your own because you can't be with each other everyday of your life.
Anyways, VCU is going to be fun. I might even take up snowboarding
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